So my OBGYN called me today and told me that not to worry but my amniotic fluid was on the low end. She said it is still normal but she wanted me to make an appointment with a high risk neonatologist just to make sure......................I of course said well should I make one right away, and she said it doesnt seem that worrisome so I made it for a week later, boy had I wished I would have just gone in sooner. I was somewhat put off also, that it took two weeks AFTER my 20 week scan for them to call me as they had noticed the low fluid, and also, why didnt the sonographer notice this right away......this whole things reeks of "shoulda, woulda, coulda", and "had I of known", and "I wish I would have done things differently".......

Anatomy of a scan: 20 weeks

went in for 20 week anatomy scan ultrasound and to also find out sex of baby!!!! I had been on the fence about finding out as I thought it would be a nice surprise as I would be happy either way(I was thinking it would be nice if Viola had a sister, but a boy would be lovely too...whole different experience). Chad and Viola came with me and the sonographer was lets just say ABRUPT. She seemed to be getting upset that she could not get him to move and she said she could not see his heart because of his position. She then asked me a very strange question "have you been bleeding or spotting"? "No" I said, "is something wrong". She said she saw some blood spots on the placenta. And then told us it was nothing to worry about...........So after a while she said she might not be able to tell the sex of the baby because of his position. I told her not to worry about it as we had a genetic ultrasound on Monday, So we could check all of the stuff she could not see. She gasped and told us rather snippy, "Well that is what this ultrasound is and your insurance company is not going to pay for it". Chad and I talked later at how put off by her we were. She then convinced us that everything was ok, he was measuring fine, and that we could see the genetic specialist at the 28 week appointment.(ironically, my pregnancy did not even last that long). That little tick in my mind told me to keep the monday appointment, but I eventually just cancelled it. Boy do I wish I would have just kept that appointment. You will find out why in the next post.......

car accident: 12 weeks

Viola and I were headed to the park around 10 in the morning. Stopped at a red light for at least a few minutes when WHAM out of the blue some guy slams right into the back of us, shattering the back of the van. Poor Viola saw the whole thing as she is still rear facing. My neck really hit the back of the head rest pretty bad. My first thought was, "oh my god Viola" my second thought "oh my god my baby". It took me a second to get out to check on Viola. I was pretty hysterical. When the driver of the car got out he was crying because i was crying. Viola, although upset, seemrd to be ok but all i kept saying was, i am 12 weeks pregnant oh my god i am so worried oh my god..............we went to the obgyn and the babys heartbeat sounded good and they didnt seem too worried....i still was.........

Positive Positive Positive

Positive Pregnancy test......I peed on a stick at freebirds of all places. I just couldnt help myself. I was too excited to wait!!!!!!!

Sometime in August 2009.........

Finally I talked hubby into having our second sweet baby. He was adamant about not having another one, I was adamant about having one. We both laid out our arguments for and against and somehow after months of finageling I was finally able to convince him to go ahead and try for baby # 2......His biggest argument against another one was his fear of something going wrong with the pregnancy....I told him that the chances were so small since we had such a great pregnancy with Viola, that this pregnancy and baby would be just fine.................